Breaking Barriers.

To be frank, I dislike the first impression of me being a goody-to-shoes otaku nerd. If I ever crossed paths with a time machine, I would happily change my hobbies to rid myself of this label. Not only does this label feel like my peers only seek my advice in curing their boredom with my rumored overflowing knowledge in Japanese animation, but it also makes me feel like I'm just a nobody filling in as a faceless 'friend'.

Playing all these games made me realize that I'm just a loner, complaining about reality when I should be facing it instead. Seeing characters being happy, finding love, or even creating bonds to combat evil makes me jealous. I feel a need for someone to read this blog, heck even just this post is fine. Sticking my face in front of a screen for most of my days left me with a bad habit of being unable to voice out my feelings.

I want to be heard.

Puppet.

Problems.

I feel so ridiculous right now. Whilst browsing through Facebook, I found out that a friend of mine takes scholarship Calculus. It felt weird, because I suddenly felt a throbbing pulse of jealousy. Not only that, but I also feel 10 times dumber and that life be trolling. Now that I read back my impulsive rants, everything just looked so unnecessary.

It is during those moments when one snaps and just vents out everything whilst feeling like a waste of space. However, I was once told that when a person talks, or yells if you'd like, when under stress and/or anger, they tend to be more careless with what they say. Thus this blog itself is pretty damn full of blabber and stream-of-conscience talks.

I am honestly so tired of being the pessimistic person cursing in spite, glaring at others with envy. But it doesn't look like that part of me will be gone any time soon. So as a change, all this negative chat will be converted into creation for the better.

Puppet.