Problems.

I feel so ridiculous right now. Whilst browsing through Facebook, I found out that a friend of mine takes scholarship Calculus. It felt weird, because I suddenly felt a throbbing pulse of jealousy. Not only that, but I also feel 10 times dumber and that life be trolling. Now that I read back my impulsive rants, everything just looked so unnecessary.

It is during those moments when one snaps and just vents out everything whilst feeling like a waste of space. However, I was once told that when a person talks, or yells if you'd like, when under stress and/or anger, they tend to be more careless with what they say. Thus this blog itself is pretty damn full of blabber and stream-of-conscience talks.

I am honestly so tired of being the pessimistic person cursing in spite, glaring at others with envy. But it doesn't look like that part of me will be gone any time soon. So as a change, all this negative chat will be converted into creation for the better.

Puppet.

Bored.

I am absolutely bored. There comes a point during the holidays when sleeping in and wasting one's life away staring at a tv/computer screen becomes so lifeless. After gaming for god know how long for the past couple of days, I decided to take a break for the sake of my weary eyes, only to discover that I had nothing better to do. I feel so unmotivated and lazy that its beginning to annoy me. So in the end, its back to gaming for me. = u =

221B Baker Street.

If you understand both the image above and the post's title, then you are on the right track to guessing what my current craze consists of.

Sherlock Holmes; the world's only consulting detective whom is a highly functioning sociopath that smokes certain recreational items, wears 3 nicotine patches at once, talks to a skull and/or plays the violin when in thought. Being a person who may occasionally not move, eat or talk for days on end, Dr. John Watson is rumored to be one of the only people who is able to tolerate such eccentric behavior.

Personally, I would shoot myself if I met 'the' Sherlock Holmes in person. Such abnormal behavior is intolerable realistically; however when one is watching said person in a TV series show, then it is a completely different story. Every time 'Sherlock' - the contemporary SH series show appears on TV, my happiness levels exponentially sky rocket. His crude remarks and quirky behavior is always refreshing, and the music which supports said character simply fits like a glove. The eccentric tunes of the guitar work magic in accompanying the show.

Bravo.
KS.

Persona

I personally admit that I tend to be rather attention seeking. Thus, instead of living in a world of denial, this post will instead be the dumping grounds of my shadow; my persona.

I just realized that if I ever encountered my own shadow (Play Persona 4), I would've never admitted that the being in front of me was a part of who I am. Its probably a sad looking thing, loathsome of visage. I can already imagine it, an annoying clingy girl, insinuating that she is yet to be skilled at anything, yet soaking in all the praise like a fat greedy child at a buffet. This imagery alone disgusts me, yet I will continue revealing all the horrors of my shadow.

Stubborn and two-faced, this child coops herself up at home, hating upon anything with defies her philosophy; a bigot, if you insist. Such is the life of a brat who does not know how to dream dreams or challenge limits. Such is the life of a person who stops themselves from getting what they want. This is an internal battle, with said naive child being drowned in self conflict.

Yes, I am a hypocritical, attention seeking brat, however I am willing to accept that.
I am who I am, and I am also willing to take responsibility for the actions I take.

Puppet.