Sniffle

I am partly sick. Hacking and coughing since Monday. Not to mention the snot and sniffing. I was reading Tsubasa in the library when suddenly I had a violent fit of coughing cause saliva got stuck down my windpipe. And it was embarrassing. This little kid was like, staring at me like I was an assassin plotting to kill Sora or something... No. Sora is awesome. And I am not an assassin.

I'd wish =w=

So any who... Badminton
\falls down in defeat.

I don't know why I can't defeat those girls! Its quite frustrating... But I shall 'chill' . Its just that I am being moved down to the lower box and with the little kiddies. NOT COOL. =w=

And, three of my violin strings are either broken or rusty to the point that its scratching the fingerboard. Mum better have had bought those strings otherwise I'm screwed for violin lessons tomorrow D:

My English teacher is MAD. 'nuf said. She gives us so much homework its like she thinks we're applying for a PHD in literature.... =w= What. An essay due in next Monday...

I'm gonna stay happy-go-lucky like Fai~~ You can always learn new things from that happy camper! XD

Squee! XD I LOVE clamp's art... =w=

\drools at pretty hand art and complicated whatnot's.

Hmm. I'm just gonna do my best at everything from now on!! :D

Especially science. =.= MUST GET ALL EXCELLENCE'S!!!
OTL

Physics+maths= epic win.

NOW I SO GET EVERYTHING!!
Fank Joohh Maths =w=

And I need to practice violin. I swear someone has to backhand me senseless if I even miss one day of practice... OTL


"Practices only on the days that you breathe." Quoted by my music teacher.

Oh the sarcasm. That deserves brownie points. =w=

So I shall retire from this blog for now :D

Have a nice day(s)! XD

Canteen Nazi Style.

This is madness. Utter preposterous madness. This year (like every other year) our school has athletics day on a Tuesday and a Thursday and cultural groups are allowed to sell only drinks on Tuesday and food AND drinks on Thursday.

This year, we (the Malaysian group) were ready and ever so excited to spread our culture and show the school what Malaysians we're REALLY made up of! (Some people still think that we Malaysians live in tree house, which is oh so wrong my friend. We live in spacious, cozy terrace houses =w=) So the problem? This year, because of the selfish school canteen (who sell overpriced, low quality food.) are prohibiting the sale of drinks on a Tuesday. And they only told us that on the day before athletics day. Outrageous!! I dare say.

I am BEYOND enraged. Everyone have already bought and planned everything for tomorrow and now we can't sell anything?!

Our poor leader is beyond stressed and is distressed about the dilemma so now what?

I DEMAND A REFUND.

'tis something a constantly say when I demand something to happen for the good of the majority.

A Filled Bottle But No Detonator.

I am in the dumps. 'nuf said. Reason? Badminton. And my bad habit of self criticism. It really hurts. Honest. Today was the first day of team tryouts to represent your province, and I screwed everything up by losing all my games. Badly. I know I can beat those girls (served with humble pie) But I ended up failing so bad.

This means A LOT to me. Because being the youngest in the family, my parents have been praising my elder siblings since I was little.

"Your sister is in the top class so you should aim for that as well."

"Look at your brother's consistency on the piano! You have to be able to play at least as good as your brother."

"You're doing it all wrong. Why can't you draw nicely like your sister?"

"Why aren't you like your brother and sister?"

I'm so sick of it. There's a twisted knot inside of me and it hurts so bad. Why can't I choose what I want? Just because I am the youngest does NOT mean that you can use my other sibling's childhood as a template. Because there is no other option to solve the nagging and comparing, I'm trying my very best to achieve both my parent's and my own standards. I want to prove to them that I can actually make them acknowledge me as who I am. I want them to praise me. I've been waiting all my life to hear those few words of acceptance. Just a glimpse of hope to make my life worthy of existing.


I play the piano and violin. I play badminton. I have average drawing abilities. I am able to barely speak Chinese, Cantonese and Japanese. And a hint of Malay. I can read, write, talk, laugh, share emotions, walk, run, hear, see, sew, cook, do the dishes and laundry, do mental maths, sing, sigh, think, text, scream, cry, type, skip, fall, trip and have a need to be wanted, accepted and loved.

I am a human being.
There is no 'perfect child'.
Isn't trying my best already good enough?
Oh. Of course it's not.
But I want to live my life with no regrets.

So I gotta look forward.

Yesterday was history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift, that is why we call it present.
Good night.

I will be waiting for the day my bottle falls to the ground and sets free the caged bird inside.

Magical Music

I just noticed how amazing listening to music can be! Given that you listen to the right songs which give you an image of a soothing or tranquil environment, listening to music can prove to be a stress reliever. (proven fact and tested)
Mmmmm and now I appreciate music even more because of the amazing mental and emotional effects it can make. Like for example, I left my music on shuffle and went to practice violin when my brother was sleeping in the same room as the computer. And apparently it started playing one winged angel (Sephiroth's theme. And no, Sephiroth is not an 'angle'.) And when I came back my brother was complaining that he started having nightmares when that ominous music started playing. See what I mean? Haha, even I wouldn't be sleeping well with that playing on almost full blast....

And also, today for orchestra practice, we played a piece of music called Tahiti Trot (based upon "Tea for Two") , orchestration by Dmitri Shostakovich. Now, the story behind how this piece of music was made for an orchestra is quite amusing.... Composing music for a full orchestra even by famous musicians lilke Mozart or Beethoven takes months and even years. But this certain piece was made in less than an hour. Dmitri was a famous composer and musician and wrote lots of famous concertos and orchestra music. Until one day, his friend said "I bet, you can't write out and rearrange the song "Tea for Two" so that its fit for an orchestra, in under one hour." And Dmitri disagreed and accepted the challenge. The Tahiti Trot was rearranged for a full orchestra in only 45 minutes.

So the moral of the story? Do not underestimate a musician's speed of writing. Even if it ends up giving them arthritis.

The Tahiti Trot is a dreamy sort of music with a lovely Celeste part and a playful yet rich tune. I enjoy playing this song because of the fact that (yes, this was quoted by my conductor, well more or less shouted by halfway during the song...) it does indeed "make you feel like you're in a Disney movie." That, I agree with 90%. With the lovely string and woodwind/brass sections echoing each other and the violin's dainty pizzicato, this song really sets a good mood to keep for the rest of the day~

Yes, music DOES attract one's attention better than ANYTHING.

Ciao~

Mind Tea....

I am exhausted. Both mentally, physically AND emotionally. Don't ask about the emotional bit.... I'm just stressed. VERY stressed. I don't know whether its me blaming myself for everything and making everything worse, but I feel so much pressure just walking into my own school. Honestly. Last year was a blast! And classes were fun~ Maybe I've got the blues because everything changed so suddenly. I'm not in the same classes as my friends, being isolated by my huge option choices allowing me to skip a year.

Everyday it's getting harder and harder to pull up my happy mask just to shield away my frustrations and whatnot. I realized that it's all in the mind. Maybe I just need to cool off a little bit. Even the heat is really getting on my nerves... (I would GLADLY run across the water sprinklers like other students but my big arsed pride always gets the best of me....)

One of my friends advised me to drink tea. Would that REALLY work? (Is currently boiling water for the tea) I heard ice-cream is also an anti-depressant but I think I should take the healthier approach~

Just staring at this lovely picture already makes me invigorated and tranquilized... Ahh... Oh. Tea's done~

I shall indulge myself in my problems and hopefully toss them away. Hakuna Matata... Right? ^^

Adieu.

Stressed = Desserts

I am not having a very good day =w=
All my lovely teachers just HAD to bombard me with homework and whatnot on a Friday eh?

Music: Prepare a song on your main instrument that's 30+ seconds. Duets allowed.

Jap: Study part 5 vocab, there will be a test

English: Write down dictionary definitions of words that the class and I already understand. (Not sure about the 'Stupidese' though...)

Social Studies: Glue down sheets of paper \facepalm

Extra curriculum: Singles ladder challenge for badminton which decides which ______ team you are in.


I don't know.... Even if I'm look at this now I think it looks pretty easy. But I'm stressing out so much probably cause there's more exams and I'm being all azn... Serious. There is hardcore competition in ALL my classes =w=

I don't even think I'll get a math award this year.... Junior awards are so byst...

Then again.... I'm hoping to do well this year! Gonna be studying hard~ Well... I hope I do...


If... Stressed = Desserts then wouldn't....

\head desks face into a banana split

Oh... I see...
\records newly acquired information down.

Well... I guess I need a new studying tactic for Japanese... Last year's tactic was to cram everything into my small brain. And I think I can't take it anymore...

I need... A relaxing agent.
Something like tea. =w=

I really have no idea how this came into the picture. But it reminds me of hope?
I don't know. Haha. Love the whole 'hand-stretched-out-waiting-to-be-accepted-' pose. 'Tis one of my favorite poses.

In case you can't see this, there is a grey line in the picture. Its words =w=

Says...
When I saw you, time stood still.

....? Deep. =w=

But that is logically impossible. You can't stop time just because you saw someone.
On second thoughts....
Time DID stop when Roxas met Axel.... What does THAT mean? O_o
Ermm.... Video games don't count. \facepalm

Hummm... Got coaching tomorrow at 8am... So gotta get my rest. =.=

As Matsumoto quoted in bleach Omake:
Those who sleep well, grow well.

\murdered by Toshiro.

Azns In Need Of Reinforcements.

This is not funny.

Today, was the first day of school. It was supposed to be a happy-go-lucky, oh-I'm-in-the-same-class-as-you! , SPLEE!-I-have-awesome-teachers and I'm-so-excited-for-camp day.

Ahaha hahaha hahah! No.

Unfortunately, today was what I would like to call...

The beginning of hell.


First of all, when the heck did so many whites get into our school?!

This used to be an azn paradise with cospalyers, otakus and PEOPLE WHO CAN REMEMBER THINGS.

\facepalm

I'm not trying to be racist here, I DO know that Europeans are intelligent, outgoing and cool. But we're practically talking about a NEW SPECIES HERE.

I call this the Stupidese.


Girls in our school are so 'blonde' I really can't tolerate it anymore

\head desk


They can't remember their own timetable after a whole year.
Always defile their belongings with white-out/twink, ribbons, and markers.
Buy things that are 'cool' just 'cause all their friends are.
And talk like this? Like there is a question mark? At the end of every sentence?


God it makes me SICK.


There is something in this world called a RECESSION! Not that they can understand long words anyways....
I swear, one day... One day... I'll...


\Schemes like no tomorrow and drags Zexion along with the plan.


I don't know. Maybe its me and my weird ways but they always make me twitch and really make me wanna reach out for a shot gun or something to end their miserable lives.
My tutor/homeroom teacher is crazy. The cool type of crazy. I don't know but he is VERY competitive... It kinda freaks me out. Then again... asians are supposed to be competitive anyways.. It runs in the blood eh?


I can't wait for japanese classes!!! Squee~ Finally skipped a year but I feel reluctant about what I'm doing... I mean what if I don't do good? D:


Listing out comments on all my teachers =w=


Science: Got two teachers! Both awesomely good at teaching... Science! Thank god Vexen doesn't work at my school.... =.=

English: Apparently my teacher is fairly nice?

Maths: Picks on ANYONE that sits on that one table. I don't get it. Is it the table's fault or the student? D:

Social Studies: I heard from my friend she is very mean.

Music extension: The awesomest/craziest music teacher I've ever known in my life. He's even crazier without his morning coffee... =w=

Japanese: SKGJSWEISIBOSODJEGNAKLTEQ I'VE WANTED HER FOR A TEACHER SINCE FOREVER and now she has to leave around June?! D: \facepalm

Phys Ed. : Friends told me she looks like a guy. \Is scared.

Tech: No comment... =w= ok? nice? mean? A whole package in 1.

Health: Love her life stories haha! Very nice teacher.


So that concludes my rant on the first day of school =w=

Tomorrow = The End of The World

Gosh.

Dejavu?

First day of school.... Is tomorrow.
I resent to packing my damn bag cause its just me.
Last minute, procrastinating me. =w=

Brother and I are thinking of taking up another online game again... Maplestory private server?

Overwhelming GGness of a highly rated private server= phail

You can kill a pink bean in one hit. Now where is the fun in that?
I thought the creation of pink bean was supposed to be epic win with the whole drama and what not...
e.g. "PRIEST HEAL!!
"Buffs plox."
"Can I get a res. here plz?"
"Come on guys! We can do THIS!!!" [insert war cry here]

I don't know. It actually makes it more epic instead of...
"La la la la! Oh. Whoops I accidentally killed ett. " =w=

That reminds me....
KHR Maplestory style.... :3
LOL Basil.... He was the only one I could make with banned story... =.=









Humm... My friend and I are planning on taking the same subjects in the final year..


But I loathe physics. I mean. I don't really wanna know how fast k/ph wise would be equivalent to the distance of X.
I mean
I found X! <----- Its right here.

And learning the violin IS actually harder than it looks. =w=
When it comes to commitment to practice the violin, that is.
I WAS proud when I practiced for 1 hour straight.
But it was on the wrong instrument.
I swear its the piano's fault. =.=
\facepalm

Yes, I admit I have the attention span of a distorted moogle.
Actually I can concentrate if I want to.

And speaking of concentration...










Description: Temporarily increases weapon attack, while simultaneously decreases skill based MP usage.



Right. Well I don't really need to increase my strength... But thanks for offering? And I'm pretty sure I don't have much 'mana' but I DO have a mama~
























Class: Bow Master
I'm sure we don't have bow master classes in school... So does that mean I can't learn concentration? D:




Effects: Success rate 50%; Master level of the skill increased from 21-30
Oh dear. Theres even a success rate for the book? I wonder who wrote it... =w=


"Sold for 1 meso."
And I'm pretty sure our currency is dollars and cents but... Whatever tickles your fancy I guess....




Used for: (Not applicable)
Theres not even a description for the use of this amazing book! D:
No wonder everyone lacks concentration... =w=

Meow?

A hurr hurr.

This is my first blog post.. And school starts in two days and I don't know how to react to that...

Happy? Sad?

Perplexed. =w=

Better stock up on KH entertainment and Anime/manga before school starts...

Then again. My P.S.2 is epic phail. I can't play KH2 anymore and I'm so close to kicking Xemnas' sorry ass... But I heard he turned into a... Flower?

\Shot by Xiggy


Go Hyper! Tsuna~~ The great KHR battle begins.... And Byakuran sends out a nude... him. =w=
What has amazing Amano Akira done this time.... Lol.



So go go Tsuna! =w= Love Muku's vongola box...


I don't believe in Santa.

\hi-5s Riku.


And... I think that just put me on the naughty list right next to Roxas (what did HE do anyways? forget to eat a sea saltie for one day?)


A hurr hurr.


I never had the chance to battle Sephiroth... Love his theme though~


And his GG(Good Game)ness....
























AGREED.



And... I spy, with my little eye... Sora!




Haha~